I don’t know if I should be happy or sad

Sairam friends,

These days, I like to be alone. I like to walk alone and be alone. I also like to have lunch alone but sometimes, am not able to avoid having lunch with others.

Whatever I am going through is making me question a lot about life. Sai is always with me but that doesn’t mean I can be confident. I have my own insecurities and worries.

One thing I realized is that Saibaba knows things won’t be smooth for me. So he made me divert my mind in Photography.

I recently bought a small 50 mm lens and love it so much. I enjoy taking portraits of friends or people.

I love the way it helps me do beautiful photography.

I am planning to engage people who are depressed into Photography. It has helped me a lot and hence it should help you too.

Sai seems to help me discover the purpose in my life. What am I going to do by working in a Software company? The maximum I can do is bring in new business there by helping more people to get jobs.

But I wish to discover a better purpose in life. What I do should honestly impact thousands of people in a positive way. Lets see how Sai guides me.

Sometimes, I wish to go to a temple inside a jungle where I can meet Saibaba. Wish there really is such a place where Sai is hiding. I will sleep in Saibaba’s lap and ask him questions about life, people and the world.

I wish to always remember SAI SAI SAI no matter what I do.

I don’t know if I should be happy or sad because I am crossing all these emotional bias. We should experience bliss of Saibaba that we will never be able to feel the pain in us.

Love you all because I am learning a lot from you.

Sometimes when I laugh, I ask myself if I deserve to laugh and smile for my parents aren’t happy. My Mom says she has pain these days.It makes me wonder if I should laugh at all.

I wish to sleep now deeply remembering Sai.

I lost myself in Sai.


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2 thoughts on “I don’t know if I should be happy or sad”

  1. Om SaiRam !!
    dear Venkat brother..Sai Baba will help you and will take care everything ! My prayers for your happy life ! I faced many obstacles in my life. With Baba’s grace me getting guidance and support from your articles. Baba will do good in your life. Om bhakthavana samarthaya Sainathay namah !!

  2. Venkat brother,
    “Our Baba’s desire is to see us happy..
    If you are sad, your amma will be sad, and baba will be sad..if you are happy, your amma will be happy, baba will be happy”

    So now think fo you want to hurt baba…
    This too shall pass…
    Everyone has problems…we all are blessed because we all are chosen by baba to be his disciples..

    Stay happy..stay strong. Its all about fearlessness courage determination….keep away all worries…
    Think of a solution and strive so hard that your worries become too small that you can step on it.. .😊

    You are an inspiration to all of us..you are chosen by sai to give inspiration to all people like me..and so you are already doing such a big healing of our wounds..

    You are our role model..role models cannot be sad..

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