I have just 15 minutes to write now. I was too depressed yesterday as my parents wish I say them that I like this girl. Last Morning, There was a argument that am already old enough and still not ready to accept any girl. I hurt my parents but later felt too painful. I really don’t like all these misunderstanding and arguments and felt better not to live anymore. My situation, What I am as a person and my parents expectation doesn’t match all well, these days.
They feel, I am simply thinking Sai himself will bring a girl which won’t happen and I have to accept life practically.I understand their feelings but what can i do Sai?
I told Sai, either say me whom should I marry or better let me go. I hate this arguments stuff. Since I love Murugan a lot, I told him too to show me the right way. I went to Nagasai mandhir, stood in Dwarakamai and was speaking to Sai in Mind. I got a call from the air hostess friend of mine ( Don’t wanna say name). She’s just my good friend these days. I told her she must continue her studies as she got Job as Cabin crew as soon as she completed schooling.
I am really worried about Men and Women, who quit their education early because when they suffer in later stage of life, its hard for them to take up studies.
She told me, don’t be too caring to any girl you like…You show some “attitude”. Only then you will get your girl. ..he he…
I felt was laughing when she said this because I can’t imaging myself behaving like that. At night, I slept off hugging Shirdi Saibaba’s book and prayed Sai to guide me.
While I was standing outside in the temple, A devotee friend of mine came with prasad of Palani Murugan Panchamrutham and gave it to me. I came home and
Lord Kandoba and Palani Murugan in Dream:
I had a dream as if I am standing in a bus stop in Pollachi and waiting to take bus when the devotee friend comes and gives me Palani Murugan’s panchamrutham. I then see two police men and north Indian guys. They said, they went to Shirdi, Madhya pradesh to various temples and had darshan of Lord Kandoba also.
That’s it …Its a small dream but I felt blessed.
Lord Kandhoba in Shirdi:
Kandhoba is the Village God of Shirdi even before Sai Baba came to shirdi in 18th century. Sai first came to shirdi as a 16 year old boy and was seen meditating under a Neem tree. He had to face lots of difficulties and suddenly disappeared. When Sai came as a ordinary Fakir with a marriage party in a bullock cart second time to Shirdi, the priest of Kandhoba temple Mahalsapathi welcomed him saying “Aao Sai” – Welcome Sai.
Sai meaning a Saintly person. Since then the poor fakir was came to be known as Sai Baba. Sai never left Shirdi since then. First Sai was living in Kandhoba temple but some villagers objected that a Muslim fakir should not stay in Hindu temple.
About Lord Kandhoba:
Kandhoba is a regional Hindu deity, worshipped as Mārtanda Bhairava, a form of Shiva, mainly in the Deccan plateau of India, especially in the states of Maharashtra and Karnataka. He is the most popular family deity in Maharashtra.He is also the patron deity of warrior, farming, herding as well as some Brahmin (priest) castes, the hunters and gatherers of the hills and forests. Jejuri is a famous temple for Lord Kandhoba.
The worship of Khandoba developed during the 9th and 10th centuries from a folk deity into a composite god possessing the attributes of Shiva, Bhairava, Surya and Karttikeya (Skanda). He is depicted either in the form of a Lingam, or as an image riding on a bull or a horse. The foremost centre of Khandoba worship is Jejuri in Maharashtra.
Am getting late now to work….gotta write fast……I just felt blessed for this dream friends. Also for the Palani Murugan prasad I got which I gave parents. I hope Sai really shows me a way. One really can’t write everything in StarSai but these days I write as it helps me take everything as Sai’s will. I never wrote about Kandhoba all these years. So felt Sai made me do it today…
Its all become commercial in Shirdi now. Where ever you go, You see Star Hotels, Lodges, People selling stuff but I imagine just two things.
One is the Sand of Shirdi – Even after 1000 years Its sacred for Sai’s holy feet touched shirdi and secondly I just love the Dhuni and Dwarakamai in Shirdi. Even the air in Shirdi is gifted as it enters the holy place.
I really wanted to do something worthy in Life Sai.
At the same time, Have to make parents happy
Before I go, i was searching what People are looking for in StarSai.com
Google Suggestion shows StarSai.com 2010 . I wondered what’s it and saw below article I wrote……Hmmmmm…
Haven’t you seen how many thousands suffer without child birth. So accept any child that God blesses you as Gift, Be it Girl or Boy. Its a Gift.
Saiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii….Do your leela soon
I keep this post in Travel section as Kandhoba temple is good to see when you travel to shirdi.