When you change the way you look, You also change your mind

Sairam friends,

2010 was the year when my Father first got some health issues to the extent that he was admitted in hospital. One night, he suffered a lot in pain when I prayed Lord Venkateswara that I will offer my hair in Tirupati.  After that, I did offer my hair to Lord Murugan but could not do it in Tirupati. My Father gets angry on me everytime I offer hair in temple and never let me do it. I was wondering if I will ever do it before I loose all my hair. This time, he himself asked me to go to Tirupati as I have been asking for long for it.

Since my father was in Tirupati when I was born, he named me after him. Lord Venkateswara is very dear to me too as he has also blessed me appearing in my dream vision when I slept hugging Sai Satcharita during my 2007 pilgrimage to Tirupati.  Wrote about it here – Sri Venkateswara – The God who opened eyes for chanting his holy name.

I am starting to Tirupati with my friend on Friday evening – So I will be in Tirupati on 12th and 13th November 2016. I hope Lord Venkateswara blesses us with good darshan.

Why offer hair to God?

These days, even guys are very much obsessed with their looks. I get really annoyed when guys discuss amoung themseleves that they are loosing hair, they are putting on weight etc. Do you know some girls and guys get into immense depression just because people comment on their looks very casually. Spiritually speaking, looks are important but you must not worry much about it. No one is going to look good forever. So when you offer hair, its like you are letting down your ego to look good or pleseant. This is my personal opinion though it fits for guys who are really handsome…he he and not me.

Anyway, As far as I know, when ever I offer hair, I feel really pure. I like the change in me. It’s just an external change but psychologically it also helps you change internally. What I have been going through the past 3 month at work made me feel that I think too much of myself. I must have acted little matured no matter what Sai showed in dreams. My Sweet fakir of Shirdi did not came to rescue me when I was hurt and ashamed. That’s his way. He stirs something and goes back to take care of millions of his other children while I was crying to him to show me a way.

I have to change myself internally and accept life as it comes. I will surrender my heart and soul in the holy feet of Shirdi Saibaba. Then, its up to him to show me a way.

Note – This article must not be misunderstood that offering hair is good.  That’s your personal interest. Some people can do it some may not like it. You must understand my writings with a better meaning. It’s like you must not worry about your looks, what people think of you etc. When you don’t worry about external factors, naturally you can work on the internal factors which happens in your mind. The moral of the story is simple – “Be clean and pure at heart”

Be happy with what you have in life

The past 2-3 days, I am really fed up listening to people talking about the ban on 500 Rs and 1000 Rs currency. From day one, I tried maximum to avoid this conversation. I have been promoting a website for Financial Technology companies for couple of years now and I know what digital payments can do to simplify our life. Infact, I was about to reach influencer status on Twitter. I calmed down just because I wanted to keep my current job safe. In countries like Sweden, less than 2% happens in cash transation. So its good that India is moving towards Digital payments.

Further, Saibaba has always taught me a special lesson. To “Give” and be happy with what you earn in life. He will take care of the rest. Sai is my bank. When he knows I desperately have a need, I believe he’s there to give. This evening, some of my friends were talking about it again. Since my place is near Coffee machine, I was bored listening to this topic. So took a piece of paper and drew. I sent it to everyone on Whatsapp and felt happy..he he..

I first made this stick drawing as usual. I just had these 10 Rupee and 20 Rupee bills in my pocket which I arranged. I made myself in the drawing to say “Jai Hind”. I know many people have faced inconvience because of the ban but as long as it does good to the Nation, we must welcome it. Don’t keep on talking about it. I am bored.

I have only few more years to enjoy life . So talk something smart and intelligent guys!

Jai Hind!

Sai, Bless my ordinary Indians to lead a happy life.

Dwarakamai in every temple must be clean as that’s like your heart where Baba lives

I went to Saibaba temple near office this afternoon. In the place where they give food, a devotee had dropped some rice and everyone were stamping it. I had wrote so many articles saying “Food is God”. So I could not bear it. A writer does what he deeply believes in. I removed the food with my palm and dropped it else where so that none will keep their feet on the rice.

Then, I found the Dwarakamai little griny due to mud. The past 2 weeks, I enjoy sweeping Dwarakamai in this temple. You know, when ever I start to sweep some women devotee interrupts and ask “Sairam! Shall I do it?”

Last week, I did not allow. I smiled to her and said “Its OK.. You relax”. Today, I was happily sweeping and a girl asked me if she can do it. She was staring at me as if I am not supposed to sweep. I got scared and gave the broom to let her continue. A Man is not supposed to sweep or does a women gets this interest to sweep as soon as she finds me doing it? Many girls come to this Saibaba temple but I don’t feel shy doing such work in temple. Its part of my life for over 10 years.

Why do these ladies ask for broom when ever I sweep? Adhaan naan pandren la.When I am doing some work for Baba, don’t stop me. Join me but don’t grab what I do for Sai for that’s the only good thing I am doing in this birth. I am not keeping my parents happy. Atleast, let Saibaba be happy.

I took below photo near the Tulsi plant in this temple.

I have spent years cleaning temple and one of my friend has been cleaning in Nagasai Mandir for over 15 years. Dwarakamai in any temple has to be clean. Radhakrishnamai used to literraly white wash the walls of Dwarkamai every alternative day when Sai sleeps in Chavdi. How can this women do it all alone or with little help from others? Think about her seva to Saibaba. Baba also took care of her like her Father.

Only when I write about this, I remember that I even made an exclusive site to spread this message – Keep Temples Clean, Pure and Peaceful . Apologies for not writing much content in that site. I have time only for StarSai.

I am very possessive when it comes to doing some work for Saibaba. Until some years back, I won’t allow anyone to clean Dhuni in Nagasai Mandir other than couple of my friends. The past 2-3 years, I gradually understood that everyone has equal rights to serve Baba and let others do it.

The Sai with the Scarf

I like girls dress materials a lot. Especially, colorful Dupatta. I enjoy purchasing these as I request my Father to stitch dress for my little Saibaba with these cloths.  In 2014, I regularly had a very peculiar dream. Sai will show me a girl wearing a scarf over her head or it will be like she wears her dupatta around her head. I wake up and ask Saibaba what he’s trying to convey? I have never come across such a girl any where in my life. When ever I see this girl with a scarf in dream, she would be in a white dress.

Now a days, I completely forgot such dreams. Thank God. This girl with the scarf is not disturbing me in dreams any longer. But Saibaba is disturbing me. He always does. This evening, Padma aunty sent me a message. I found this Saibaba wearing some other cloth but the way he wears it makes me feel he looks like a girl.

So this is my girlish Saibaba.

Isn’t She cute?

Diamond ring dream

This morning, I had a very strange dream. It was as if one of this girl goes in a flight. She drops her Diamond ring some where dirty. The pilot even stops the flight to get her diamond ring and then the flight takes off. When I woke up, I asked Saibaba what does he mean by this? Several times, Sai had blessed me with Diamond comparing it to a girl’s heart.

See this dream in had on October 23rd 2014 –

If you deserve Koh-i-Noor Diamond, you will get it back

When ever I get dreams, I will do some research online or speak to some of my close friends about it to understand the dream. I came across this video by using some keywords and made some of my friends see a 16 year old taking a flight solo on her birthday. I kept admiring this little girl. How can she fly a plane when she’s just 16?

Man..I feel that I have never lived. I just ate and slept.

The expression she gives when she gracefully lands in the run way. A video that made me realize…

“You can fear in life but do what you want to do. Express all your “Fear” while doing it and when you complete doing it, you will loose your fear.”

I irritated one of my friend saying he must get out of this job and get trained to be a pilot. ‘

Let’s remember some beautiful lyrics…

Most of the people who know me at work don’t know how I was before 5-6 years. I used to listen to so much Music. I like Jon Bon Jovi for one of his song. Since I saw a Diamond ring, I took it as an auspicious sign from Saibaba. There’s this beautiful song by Bon Jovi called “Diamond Rings”

Wish I could be a song writer. I already wrote one for Saibaba. I am waiting to invest few hundred dollars to compose that as a song. No budget as of now Baba. Give me some time. I will rock you. Mean while, here’s the lyrics I love from Bon Jovi’s song.

Diamond Ring – Bon Jovi

Diamond ring, wear it on your hand
It’s gonna tell the world, I’m your only man
Diamond ring, diamond ring
Baby, you’re my everything, diamond ring

Red, red rose brought it home to you
Blood red rose, tells me that you’re true
Red, red rose, blood-red rose
Like a fire inside that grows, blood-red rose

When you’re hungry, I will fill you up
When you’re thristy, drink out of my loving cup
When you’re crying, I’ll be the tears for you
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for you

You know, I bleed every night you sleep
‘Cause I don’t know if I’m in your dreams
I want to be your everything…

Baby, you’re my everything, diamond ring
Darling, you’re my everything, diamond ring
Now, you’ve got me on your string…

There’s a reason I share this lyrics too. I never do anything without being hinted by Saibaba and this was hinted in a dream I had on Jan 2015. I will never reveal those secrets as this is the time Saibaba wants me to be calm and get ashamed…Get hurt…Get insulted. Fine. I will be calm.

It’s Karmic.

I told one of this guy yesterday after lunch

“No Man must suffer like me”

It came from bottom of my heart.

No Man should suffer the way I do…

Everyone has problems but mine is very unique. I suffer as I take Sai’s words as my life and it has never led me to a bad state in life. It just gave me some pains occasionally but on an birds eye view, I can assure you, trusting Sai’s words has only made my life better.

Sai, show me a way

I wrote this as a long article as for the next 2-4 days, I will be traveling to Tirupati with my friend and can’t write in StarSai. Pray Saibaba that I have good journey and peaceful darshan. Baba take care of my parents too. So what are you waiting for?

Be happy. Realize the purpose of your life. Don’t worry about past, how you look or what people speak. It happens…

Change your mind because Sai dwells in a clear, pure mind. 

C.Venkatraman

Note: I usually get a hint from Saibaba related to my work for the past 3 years. It will be very strange as expression of what others think about the organization or what I find it to be like. When ever Sai hints me such dream, I ask him if I should be on my own and leave this? But what will I do to earn my living Sai? You never say that to me.  Even yesterday one of my friend was asking why should you spend your money to buy a Camera for a Corporate film? I told him that I got all the freedom to do what ever I wish here in these 5 years. So I must do little I can to “Give Back”. Further, I see so many videos of Startups and Conferences. I desperately wanted to do one for the place I work. Hope it happens.

And my Camera will work for Sai too. Lot’s more to come! Hold on!