Sairam,
Though I have been writing a lot about what’s happening at workplace and people there, I am not comfortable about it. At times, I used to wonder why should Saibaba show me dreams of people at workplace? Is it because I come across them everyday?
If a girl is going to get married, Sai would tell that to me in dream. It happened once in 2013 and even recently in 2017 and 2018. If a guy is facing issues in office and they are very much worried, Sai shows them in dream. One purticular dream I remember is about a guy who got caught that he harrassed a girl. Actually, the fault is both on this guy and the girl. This guy has 2 kids and he was about to be terminated. I saw a dream as if there’s a while board and I am rubbing all the scribblings by this guy.
It was found that the girl misbehaved with many other guys. Within a week, this guys problem got solved and he continued to work. He came with me to Saibaba temple the following day to thank Sai but I can vouch and give you he is still the same. I used to warn him saying “Sai will protect you only once. So better behave properly to girls”.
This guy is not my close friend at all. I just know him.
So why should Sai show such dreams to me?
And the worse pain I am facing the past one and half year is the dream which made me mail this girl in office. I accepted my mistake to Sai that I must have never shown interest in her. But is it right if Sai shows her in dream repeatedly? Until now, I am going through depression because of this issue.
Today, I realized that its not professional to write often about this girls issue. How many days can I do it Sai? A year or two from now, I might regret for expressing every single day about this girls issue. What’s the point in repeatedly asking “Why this happened Sai?”
The more I ask Sai, the more he is silent.
Some of my Sai friends adviced me to leave the whole issue for few days and live in peace. I also tried not to write about it but as if I am desperate, I can’t stop mentioning this issue as its bugging my heart for long.
This is one of the main reason I started working on my Startup. I thought it would be great to interest with different set of people. Gradually, I started fearing as that I am dependent on this job and if people know I work for my own Startup, it won’t be safe. So I gave up on it.
Now, I don’t know where to go Baba?
When I am sitting in my place, I often say this to myself “I don’t know where I went wrong?’
Anyway. I wish to act little matured and professional. There must be none at workplace who feels that I have disturbed them. I have already stopped looking at this girl or avoid going anywhere I find this girl. This is all I could do. I still wish to involved in a different environment.
For example – If I have something else to do during weekends, where I could meet different people, Sai might stop showing these office people in dream.
I desperately wish to something more productive with my time.
Secondly, though I firmly believe that the dreams about this girl at work are blessed my Sai, because of this issue, I identified a bad habit in me.
If I face a problem, Sai expects me to let go and move on. Look how many days, I am carrying this problem and repeatedly asking Sai to answer why he showed this girl in dream. This is not the right way to show respect on my Guru. I am behaving too rude to Sai himself.
Fine. He showed this girl in dream. He never stopped me while writing to her. He continued to show several dreams. Now, I am asking Sai for clarity.
If I say this once or 1000 times, it means the same.
Saibaba won’t help me if I am adamant like this.
May be, Sai wants me to stop asking for answer and clarity. This is true Guru bakti.
I told this several times earlier but again I wish to say, let me stop expressing this issue so often.
Give me “leave” from this issue Baba.
Having said that, I also believe my dreams about this girl is Sai’s care on this girl.
Not only this girl. I have seen other guys and girls in office in dream. Infact, I also wonder why should I see her friend and even another girl in dream? May be, Sai cares for them.
This is the only explanation I could give.
Baba. What ever happened is already gone. Now, give me good buddhi.
Let me behave professionally and never disturb anyone at work.
Recently, my friend bought a car. When he was trying for a good second hand car, I told him that on November 5th 2016, Sai blessed me with a dream that he’s driving his new car. So he would surely get a nice car and he did.
I know the exact dates of more than 30 to 40 dreams Sai blessed me about this girl. Then, imagine how painful I would feel?
Irrespective of all this, wish I learn to take things light.
Baba, make me little matured and professional. I sound very odd when ever I tell the whole world that Sai showed a girl in office in dream and now not clarifying me why he did that?
Doesn’t it sound foolish or childish on my part? What am I trying to do here?
I am fedup now Sai.
Please make me behave properly at work. I am not happy with what ever I am experiencing Baba.
Your dreams are true but I am not comfortable with the fact that I saw a girl in office environment.
You already let me disturb this girl by mailing her Baba. Now, I wish to move on with my life. I wrote 100 articles about it. What did I gain?
I love my parents. If you keep my parents safe and healthy, that’s enough for me.
Its 2 at night and I can’t sleep. This is my life for the past few month.
I lost myself. Over and over.
Om Sai Ram
Venkat
