Living every moment remembering Shirdi Saibaba

Sairam friends,

This morning, I woke up at 5.30 hearing my Father opening door to go for walking. My Ma told him not to go out in darkness but he was stubborn. I shouted at him but he never listened. I am becoming too lazy now a days and waking up late. So, I decided to read Sai Satcharitra early in the morning.

While reading, I was thinking how irrespective of being devoted to Shirdi Saibaba for several births, I am still attached to my desires? The way my life goes on the past 3 years is really frustrating. My mistake is having my own desires and worshiping Saibaba to fulfill the same.

No matter how many times I go to Saibaba temple, do pooja or chant his holy name, my goal has been praying Saibaba so that Sai will bless me with a good life.

Very rarely, I prayed Saibaba to show me his presence. I tell Saibaba that I want to live remembering you for lifetime. Within few minutes, I get carried away by other needs in life. I cannot be a saint but I can lead a worldly life remembering Sai deep in my heart.

I wish to experiment by leading a life just remembering Sai. Having Sai alone as my need. We have to do our work and never expect anything and grow our desires. We must just think Sai will do what’s good for us. I wonder if I can remain like this but this is a humble effort to make myself purely devoted to Sai.

OK…I shall narrate few more incidents.

I had been to Erode with my Ma yesterday. Some of my Mom’s relatives from Tirunelvelli had come there and told my Mom that they saw the photo in which we make Pongal in a famous Tamil magazine. I got little irritated with this because if print media in India simply thinks what ever available online is free. Copyright is never respected which really hurts people like us. Magazines are sold for profit and hence they must give proper credits and first, seek permission of the content owner.

Anyway, I will carry the copyright banner I had before in StarSai.

Another Uncle of my Ma who has met her before several years saw me and asked if I write a blog as he read about Chepperai Natarajar temple and assumed its me though he don’t know my name. He said “You write so well and described it beautifully”. I thanked him.

I never tell about StarSai to my relatives especially because I write my personal life. Somehow, we can’t stop people from coming here and I assume, who ever Sai wills, comes here.

While waiting in Railway station, My Ma said “Seems so many people had seen what you write.” I said ‘Yes but see how my life is”.

My Ma said “Sai will do good to you”.

When ever I take my parents out, I get so tensed to take them back home. I got ticket in a Passenger train and when they train came, it was too crowded that we won’t have space to breath.We left the train as it was too crowded, got ticket in West coast express and by sai grace had space in a coach. Surprisingly, there was a little poster of Saibaba in that coach which I showed my Mom. My Ma said “Where ever we go,Sai comes”.

I saw a dog wagging tail to us. My Ma gave biscuits to it. It kept asking and sat in front of us. My Ma was speaking to him saying “Its all over. ”

We saw a boy who was not a child but we can account it for child labor since he was small. He was painting the platform in which the train stops. When ever train whistle could be heared, he will take the bucket of paint and stand in the middle between two train tracks.

Once the train left, he will start to paint again. I took these photos since I want to show the world how some children are working hard. They lack all the basic comfort in life. We have to learn from them.

Sai never teaches anything.

Did Saibaba wrote any book or did any recordings of his speech?

He never preached anything.

This is why, i don’t use the word “Teachings of Saibaba”

Sai gives experiences. Sai tells stories. Sai is a very unique saint who helps us lead a better life and grow as a better human being through experiences. I tell the stories Saibaba is telling me to devotees and that’s what I have been doing the past 10 years.

I am little servant of Shirdi Saibaba and wish to live every moment remembering Sai and Sai alone

Too late now

Tata

Venkat