Sairam friends,
The past few weeks I kept thinking of clarifying what’s StarSai?
I created StarSai in 2004 because of my Love for Shirdi Saibaba. I agree with this but my underlying intent was just to spread the glory of Sai. After all, Do I need to spread fame of the greatest Saint on Earth? Already it was achieved by wonderful Sai sevaks like Das Ganu Maharaj, Narasimha Swamiji, Radha Krishna Swamiji, Sivanesan Swamiji and more.
I am nobody compared to these people who dedicated their lifetime for Saibaba.
Some Sai devotee friends even directly question if this is Saibaba’s website or something else? I have faced this question few times in past.
To be clear, StarSai is a Shirdi Saibaba’s temple of Humanity.
If I must only serve Sai, then, Sai must have not given me so many experiences where I believe, I can bring in some change. Sai would have simply given me a very happy, comfortable life.
When I was not able to find a Job, I understood the pain of being a jobless creature, struggling to earn as a freelancer (At times, I earned a lot and at times, I earned very little). This made me understand feelings of Sai devotees who write me about the problems in their career or business.
Even now, I fear to quit and get into my Startup ideas because I fear what if I fail again? I had expressed all this in StarSai too.
When I suffered a lot due to the relationships I had in past, It made me understand the complications involved in any relationships and how I can help others lead a better life.
When I see the reality of how students are not given Education that leads to a good job, It makes me think if I can do something about it.
I don’t want to simply tell everyone in pain that “Saibaba will bless you..help you….do good to you..etc”. This is why I stopped replying mails from devotees. My parents had told me several times “Even if you pray for someone, do not tell to them about it. Its will be as if you are expecting some credit for the good you are doing to them. ”
Either, I must do some thing creative to directly bring a change in others life or I must remain calm.
I try to do something to filter problems from actually happening in a devotees life. Let’s say, I write an article about how careful one must be before they apply for a Loan to do business, I am actually stopping someone from being in a worst state. Its easy to get loan but what if they can’t pay back? I am trying to help someone who might suffer from inability to repay their debt.
When I write about importance of continuous learning, I actually help a student or professional to be better equipped when their current job is at stake.
When I write about my own life, small meaningless dreams and my plans, I just share the whole process of living life during difficult times.
When I write about Health issues I have, I just relate myself with anyone who faces health problems.
Devotees expect to read experiences from Sai devotees where Saibaba helped them, cured them, got them a job etc. I agree, all this are nice to read. What’s more important is accepting Saibaba when life is not too happy. How many of us can do it? I have done this for several years.
Several years without what others very easily get in their life. This is basically about spreading “Shradha and Saburi – Faith and Patience)
And below is the most important reason I don’t always write about Shirdi Saibaba.
I do not want to portray Sai as if he is a miracle worker. Sai is lovable. Simple and unpredictable. Why is that he should always do a “miracle”. He is also like us.
I have tears in my eyes when I write this friends. Sai is very caring. Don’t hate him when your life isn’t great.
When I think of Sai, I feel that sweet affection he has on me and my family. How can I express this love Saibaba has on me every day?
Sai has unpredictable and unconditional love on you. Close your eyes and chant Sai Sai Sai, remembering him. You will feel his love and care on you.
Beyond all this, I honestly don’t have so much stories to write about Sai. I will surely share Sai leela and experiences when ever I come across one.
More than any other reason, I write about other topics since I must not simply sit idle and tell whole world to worship Saibaba.
Sai expects each one of his devotee to do some work. As I always say Sai’s path is “Karma Marga”.
I must do something beyond simply spreading the glory of Shirdi Saibaba. Something that will make Sai proud of me. As of now, I have honestly not done any good to any one. Not even my parents or sister. I have not done much to bring a change in others life.
So I write about other topics to understand what I can do about it. May be, Someday, Sai will guide me to do something that really makes Saibaba feel happy about me.
Writing about Shirdi Saibaba is the best thing that can happen to me and StarSai and I shall do it when ever I get guidance from Sai. Who can write about Sai unless he makes us do it? I am just an instrument and when ever you see other topics in StarSai, it just means, Sai has not inspired me that day.
Hope you understand.
To me StarSai is for Sai but I express all that I go through. Its a way of Life.
Venkat
Baba cannot be confined. He is kalvi gnanam and selvam.He is everything.God bless you.