Sairam friends,
I am between some work and it’s going very slow. Our house is over 40 years old and hence lots of stuff to do before my Sister comes home this December. My Sister keeps asking is everything okay and my Mom and I nod our head.
I often see my Sister in dream these days. Other day, I saw her school mate Asha akka in dream as if she came our home to meet her. I did not tell this dream to my Sister as then, she will remember Asha and communicate to her that she will be in India. I want my Sister to be in our home peacefully because 3 weeks will fly quick. Of that, 2 weeks, we will be staying in some hotels or Airbnb.
There’s a Arali flower plant which my father planted. Now, every time I go outside my room, I pluck few flowers and offer to Sai and other statues and portrait in our home.
I pluck and collect flowers in my shirt pockets, palm and tell my mom, 1000 flowers are growing everyday just to hype it!
I am deeply hurt by fake Guru’s looting Sai devotees
As I mentioned earlier, there was poster a meditation event run by a fake guru in the gate of Shirdi Saibaba temple. It’s ethically and spiritually wrong. Any Shirdi Saibaba temple should not encourage posters and ads of such fake gurus promoting their nonsense.
I am planning a project to ensure Sai devotees stay intact with Sai or to ensure Sai devotees do not assure they can find peace in their life by doing behind such fake gurus. Once I launch the project, let me tell you.
I wanted to tell this to you.
Be normal. Do your work. Whenever time permits, remember Gods or Goddess or ancient Gurus you like. Why I should mention ancient, because I do not think anyone can be a good guru these days.
My habit at night before I go to sleep
I work on my laptop in the corner of the bed and later at around 1 or 2 AM, I feel like sleeping. My Mom feels dizzy sometimes. I sleep near my Mom’s legs and press her legs as she feels better on her head when I massage her foot.
If my mom is awake, I tell her the names of Goddess I love. I repeatedly tell the same stories I know of temple. Sometimes, I create my own stories about temple with my imagination. If my Mom already slept, I remember the names of temples of Goddess I had visited. I remember how Dwarakamai in Nagasai mandir will be at this moment. I love the Goddess Durga of Pateeswaram. I create my own stories about her.
Then, I imagine that I sleep inside the temple near Goddess Durga and go off to sleep.
This is my meditation. I practice imagining as if I am in some distant temples or sleeping near statue of Goddess in her holy feet.
Saw a Tiger playing with me in dream
Last night, I had a vivid dream.
It was as if I see a Tiger playing with me like a Dog in our living room. I am entering my room and the Tiger follows me with love. I give Muruku to the Tiger and could feel it’s sharp tooth but it’s kind to me.
The best part was giving Muruku to the Tiger as if it’s a pet animal.
I woke up wondered why I saw Tiger in dream?
While having lunch, I told my Amma that I saw a Tiger playing with me in dream and said “Maybe, Goddess Durga has blessed me.” My mom said, Goddess has Lion and not Tiger.
I told her but I felt it’s blessing of Goddess Durga on me. I go to this temple called Bannari Amman temple once every year. I feel like going there again.
Why I write this dream today?
Most of my dreams does not have direct meaning. I myself make my meanings. But I know which dreams are divine and a blessing. Many of you who are depressed, worried or stressed in your life might assume that going to a spiritual retreat, or attending some dam meditation workshop might be needed.
Not really. You will only be sucked into an organization where your own identity will be destroyed over the years.
Instead, try to do any sadhana on you own innocently. My way is to simply remembering Shirdi Saibaba or any Gods or Goddess I love. I keep chanting their holy name in my mind or aloud.
I don’t need any workshop. I might run what I do as workshop to others but even then, it’s important to convey people that they should adopt their own style to remember the almighty.
If I teach you something and if you do the same thing, you are following my way of reaching the almighty. You can learn little bit from me and create your own path towards the almighty.
You have Shirdi Saibaba. He lives in yourself as antaryami.
Ask him. Ask any ancient saint and do your work.
Focus on your career.
Do your work sincerely.
Do not go behind or even listen to fake gurus for a minute.
You are precious. You have your own identity.
Don’t let others influence you.
Om Sai Ram
Venkat
Edit – Okay, one reason I might have seen Tiger or felt Goddess is blessing is because next week, we have to do arrangements to keep Gollu in our home. As my Amma gets old, she always asks if we should keep this year and I say that we will keep and I will help her get things done. Whenever Navratri is nearing, I get dreams related to Goddess.
