Sairam friends,
Sai never makes us go through various difficult situations and experiences in life for no reason. Only when we go through difficulties, we will gain wisdom. Sai is a saint who wants us to lead a very happy life. However, gradually Sai also blesses us with wisdom.
I often come across people who simply say this to me – Find “Some” girl and marry.
Well. If I have to do that, I would have got married already. I personally believe that’s not the way to marry. You must listen to your inner voice which is none other than your Guru. Sai has guided me several days in the past 7-8 years. When ever I ask him “Baba, Should I marry this girl, he guides me not to”
There are no words to describe how Sai saved me. No one would believe if I express how Sai works.
So its the respect I have on Sai which helps me be single all these years.
One transformation I could find in me is the way I perceive women.
I learnt to see a girl as a good friend, a Sister and a Mother. Had I developed such state of mind few years back, I would have avoided several unnecessary relationships. I would have never bothered any girl and minded my business.
Thankfully, my Sai friends also have a role to play in making me transform so much. I have listened to stories of hundreds of girls over these 13 years. Some of them become my friends. When ever I speak to them, I realized Sai’s intention is to look at a girl beyond her appearance.
Irrespective of what I speak casually, the thought that I must perceive a women as a Mother keeps crossing my mind.
Well..One can see a girl as a Sister or even a good friend.
To be completely pure one must learn to perceive a Women as a Mother and its not easy to come to this state. It takes years of sufferings and experiences to get moulded in such a way.
For all the experiences I had in the past 10 years, I must atleast have this maturity.
Anyway, One of my friend at work returned to India after few weeks. I sensed he din’t spoke well to me. I also felt its better not to be close to anyone who knows about the girl at work whom Sai showed in dream. I told about Sai dreams to couple of my friends trusting they would guide me and help me cope up with it. Eventually, they only named me phychic. In 2016, he often hurt me saying the girl would think he only gave me her mail id. Once he was too harsh me. For this reason, I kept writing to her that what ever I did is because of me. To be honest, when I decided to write to her, I simply went to HR place, asked my friend to get away from his seat and took it. It was funny but I never thought what I am doing is going to make me suffer for another few month.
One of the mistake I did is writing to her. A lesson well learnt – Never get excited with Sai dreams because you never know what’s ahead.
Secondly, since I can’t prove Sai really showed such dreams, I feel that I have let down Sai. Its OK if these guys think bad of me but my Sai is my treasure. I must have kept everything to myself and not revealed my experiences to anyone expecting them to understand me.
No one would understand me since they all lead a practical life. Now a days, I stopped looking at this girl too but I pray for her in mind. Last evening, I realized She’s not around and prayed for her at night lighting a lamp that everything should be fine in her life. Well, people also take off as something good might have happened. So I told Sai that everything auspicious should happen in her family.
I atleast have a desire to prove my Sai has a role to play in all that happened. When it doesn’t happen, it hurts me to core.
Anyway, All these experiences must have some reason behind it. Else, Why should Sai show some girl whom I don’t even know as a friend in dream?
Probably, this is another experience to make me perceive a women as a Mother.
Sai blessings
Venkat
