Sairam friends,
After writing previous article, I felt numb and wanted to delete it but it should remain as it is for one reason. My writings are for devotees to understand Sai’s ways. Even after 100 or 1000 years, my experiences could help an ordinary devotee learn that Sai might put one through extreme sufferings for reasons unknown. I am withstanding by Sai grace.
Its not an easy task to be faithful to Sai irrespective of the humiliation I face trusting Sai’s dreams. I don’t know if you could feel my pain. Believe me. I can’t bear this torchure. I am surviving just because I believe someday, Sai will answer me.
Today, I wanted to write an article about the problems faced by several Physicians after their M.B.B.S in India. Its hard to get admission for Post Graduation after their MBBS as very few seats are available. Some of my friends write to me with so much worries as they don’t understand how to build their career without P.G. Now, I feel like touching this topic after doing some research.
This evening, I went to Saibaba temple little early. I prayed Sai and had to get medicines for my Mom from a clinic in R.S. Puram. One of the reason I love Coimbatore is because I have experienced the roads here more than anyone else. Only recently, I started regularly going by Car. Few years back, I walk atleast 10 to 15 Kms a day. Even when I was in Mumbai, I used to walk from the flat I stayed in Borivali East to a Saibaba temple in Borivali west.
It took more than half an hour for me to trace the Dattatreya temple I used to visit every Sunday during my stay in Mumbai.
I can’t find the flat I stayed as there are several huge buildings now. So I mapped my walking from this Dattatreya temple in Borivali east to Shirdi Saibaba temple in Borivali west. I still feel that I walked too long and hence not sure about the exact Sai mandir in Borivali east. As you know, Mumbai has several small saibaba temples.
Here’s my Mumbai Sunday Walking Map. Its just an approximation and I forgot the exact route. My room mate Ashish used to work as Editor in a T.V Channel and we would go together for a walk every Sunday evening.
Today, I walked to from Nagasai mandir to R.S.Puram, got medicines from the clinic, went to Rathna Vinayakar temple and then to Kamakshi Amman temple and Annapurna temple.
Of all the temples, I love the Annapurna temple the most. I also like the old priest in this temple who always has a smile on his face when ever he looks at me. He just says ‘Thambi” as a way of recogonizing me even if there’s a huge crowd in the temple. I love fragrance of Annapurna’s kumkum. They have a place to offer rice in the vessel and then I lit lamps.
Somehow, today, since Apurva was chatting with me as I walked to Annapurna temple, I was remembering all my Sai friends and prayed for them.
The only guy who’s a good Sai friend on mine is Utkarsh. He recently got married and invited me to Agra for his wedding. When we met in Chennai near West Mambalam Sai mandir in September 2016, I was really happy. Those days were much better because only in the 3rd week of September 2016, I mailed this girl at work as I got dreams from Sai.
Wish I could rewind and go back to 1st week of September when I met Utkash so that I would have never mailed this girl in my office. My life would have been peaceful without any confusion and humiliation.
Apart from Utkarsh, all other Sai friends of mine are girls and hence, at times I worry about them and pray for them.
I prayed Annapurna for all these girls.
The list is long but I shall write who ever I remember..
Apurva comes first as She’s the biggest fraud of all..he he..
I used to like her a lot earlier. Gradually, I realized Sai friends must be Sai friends. This relationship is divine and I just care for them.
I know her since 2014. Once She told me that She had been to Chennai Airport to meet a guy and came back. She will do all drama that She’s crying when she faces breakup. I get really irritated with her and tell her its not worth going behind a guy to prove that She’s true to him. Love must be reciprocal.
(I received a furious message from Appu after She read what I had wrote about her. Seems She doesn’t send her pictures anymore to any of her friends and hence became good enough.)
She looks good and one of her bad habit is often taking photos and sending it to the whole world whom ever She trusts. Thankfully, I hope She’s out of this habit now.
Followed by Apurva, I prayed for Geetanjali. I know Geetanjali for almost 2 years now. She takes care of everyone in her family when ever they get sick. Wish She finds the right guy soon! She has a Brother and I have just seen his Photo.
Then comes, Kavitha. This girl is in Chennai and soft spoken. She takes care of their parents who are not in good health these days.
And then my best friend Madhusmitha in Mumbai. When I had been to Mumbai in April 2016, I met her somewhere near Siddhi Vinayak temple in Andheri east. I love this temple sooooooooo much. I love the little Mahalakshmi temple here. Madhusmitha is going through lots of problems for the past 3-4 years. I pray Saibaba to bless her with a solution and free her soon. She should marry someone who really deserves her!
Then comes my friend Amrita in Kerala and another Amrita in Noida.
Akwindar who lives in Canada. Her Mom visited her recently and She also got Canada citizenship by Sai grace.
Ashwati is another friend who lives in Ahmedabad. Not a close friend but I just ask if She’s doing good once in a while. She was going through some relationship problem and now gradually feeling better.
Divya lives in Chennai. I had been to her home and met her parents too. No news about her for past 2 years.
Hema lives in Bhopal. We speak very rarely though.
Meetu lives in Mumbai and often tells me about issues in her office. No news about her for the past 1 year.
Preeti is a close friend of mine. She’s from Dehradun and very talkative. If I am really bored and want a human being to talk to me, I ring her. A very kind girl who has seen ups and downs in life.
Thashi lives in the U.S. Completed her Post Grad in Medicine and chats with me once in a while.
Sangeeta is a very close friend who currently completed her Medicine and by Sai grace, She must have a good career. She lives in Jaipur.
Swaroopa is from Vizag, lives in Chennai but not very close friend of mine. I just know her. Earlier, I had so many Sai friends from Andhra. Now a days, very few people write to me.
Swati lives in Noida. She’s doing her P.G in Gujarat now. A fun loving girl. Once She told me that her friends drink and if its wrong to drink as She can’t advice them and make them stop it. I am not sure what to tell to this generation of Sai devotees? Well… drinking is wrong but I am not going on a war with you. You have to think what’s good for you. Basically, Saints won’t be able to help you when you are not in clear state of mind. That’s the point.
Varalakshmi is a very caring girl and recently She had been to Shirdi with her Brother. I talk to her once in a while.
There’s more to the list and these are girls who aren’t married yet. Hence, I prayed Sai and Annapurna to bless them with good hubby.
Years back, I used to pray for my own Sister. Now, I pray for all my Sai friends because they share all that they are going through to me. I want them to lead a simple, peaceful, married life.
I hope Saibaba bless them with good Husband and make them happy.
At times, I feel that I should not get depressed since Sai showed a girl in office in dream and now, not telling me why he did that to me? I have a huge family to take care of. I have wonderful Mom and Dad. My Sister loves me for what I am. I am content with what I have in my life.
I have not made wealth but earned people. Not just these girls but hundreds of thousands of Sai children who have wrote me with affection in the past 13 years.
So I must do something meaninful with my life. When people look upon me to guide them, I must prepare myself to do something for humanity.
I am feeling sleepy now.
Sai blessings
Venkat
Note – The featured photo is the Datta Mandir in Mumbai where I used to spend few minutes every Sunday morning. This Datta looks divine. Its a small temple situated in the groud of a community. I got this pic from Google maps.
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