Sairam friends,
I started StarSai.com in 2004. Over the years, life has taught me a lot. I love and respect Saibaba but I realized being devoted to Saibaba is one thing and being a good human is completely a different aspect.
Sometimes, when I am on my way to Shirdi Saibaba temple here in Coimbatore, if someone driving their car or vehicle is driving like an idiot, I used to stare at them or sometimes even yell at them for irritating others on road. Later, I used to say myself that
“I should not be like this. People will drive as they wish on road. We should not shout at them”.
This is a small example for you to understand what I mean when I say being Sai devotee is one thing and being good human is completely different thing.
In the business I do, some people message me. Later, when I ask something to them, they stay silent. This is a business. Even then, I tell people to be human and say a word because it is them who reached out to me. Even when I could have made money from people who treat me like this, I decide to keep away from them.
Now, coming to Sai seva I do, everyday, I receive emails, messages or calls. Believe me. I hardly have time for Sai devotees. But when someone calls me, I get to the point and answer them. Mostly, devotees do not like me as I only answer practically. I do not like people to imagine things will happen when it might not.
Recently, a girl messaged me and spoke to me. She messaged me late in the night. I was at work but I replied. Later, in the day time, I was doing my work but since she called-up I answered. These 20 to 30 minutes are precious to me. I do not give solution but I understand what happened in their life, and share what I have learnt from them and my own experience. I ask devotees to reduce their expectation as I only faced pain most of my life. I was too innocent to believe in some dreams Saibaba showed me but I only got hurt due to that.
So, I told this girl not to believe completely in dreams and hooked by that. Sometimes, we never know why Saibaba shows such dreams. There’s a beautiful incident during Saibaba’s lifetime in Shirdi.
Once Tarkad had a vision of a agricultural land getting on fire. He immediately went there and was able to put off the fire. Later when Tarkad and his wife went to see Saibaba in Dwarakamai, Baba told Tarkad, “Rand thujse chapak gayi kya. Meaning “Did the prostitute get attached to you?”
Tarkad’s wife was shocked wondering if her husband went in wrong ways. But what Saibaba meant was clear to Tarkad alone. According to Saibaba
“One should not get attached to the dream vision or their ability to foresee future”.
Saibaba means to advice Tarkad not to get attached for his ability to foresee that some agricultural land caught fire and he was able to safeguard it.
(I am not sure if this is Tarkad since am not reading Sai books much these days after my appa passed away, but I know this story very well.)
In my own life, I have had several incidents when I was able to foresee future. A lot has benefitted me but some only confused me.
I was able to foresee that someone will have child, someone will get married. These could be people I know personally, or strangers to whom I have never spoken once.
It was sometime in 2016 or 2017, when I had a vision of someone at my office. I was hooked to this dream. Years later, I realized, no one can understand why Saibaba shows such dreams. I realized, I would have not been attached to such dreams. I should have been pure. I should have been myself.
Years later, I regret for some dreams I got from Saibaba but probably, I should only regret my own reaction to the dream.
I just shared these incidents to this girl and asked me not to get hooked to the dreams she got.
Later, I messaged her something.
The most important thing I always say people is this.
1.Never, ever be influenced by anyone saying they serve Saibaba ( This includes me)
2.I admire ordinary Sai devotees. Anyone who does pooja or some kind of spiritual act like coming around Dhuni or reading a mantra, that devotion is greater than anyone who says they are serving Saibaba.
One thing I noticed from this girl was that, she did not reply my message.
Coming back to my nature, even at work, if someone does not reply me, I delete their numbers.
So, I told this girl that it’s important to be human rather than being devoted or even calling oneself as Sai devotee.
I know several hundred Sai devotees who had been in touch with me in the past but they will gradually disappear. Sometimes, they get busy, sometimes, they get married or their life changes. We are speaking about almost 22 years of guiding sai devotees.
There are only handful of Sai devotees who are in touch with me for atleast 10 years.
But I honestly do not encourage people who has no courtesy to say a word.
I am not here to build any relationship with anyone because I lost myself and my life over the years.
Couple of years back, my Appa appeared in my dream and said “Venkat, you come to me.”
I honestly felt maybe now, that my Appa could have bird’s eye view of my past, present and future, he feels its better for his son to come to him peacefully.
So, I keep asking Saibaba to take me to my Appa and that’s my only real desire. As long as I live, I wanted to do little good deeds to people I come across.
I am here to answer and guide Sai devotees but only if they are human and have some basic courtesy.
Please do not roam in a fake dressing that you are a Sai devotee. Learn to respect people, do good deeds and be human.
When I was in Saibaba temple last evening, a lady fainted and fell down. 3 ladies were around her asking her to have water. I mixed electrol power in bottle and asked her to drink. I massaged the ladies back and head for 2 minutes. I was annoyed the 3 other ladies were only starring at her asking her to drink water but not even touching her. Being a man, I don’t mind massaging the back of this lady because I have done this to my Mom whenever she faints. India will let people die since the male-female differentiation is perceived a lot in this nation. During critical situation, one must do whatever possible to make others feel better or save them.
I came home and told my Amma that I feel bad why the other ladies are not even touching the lady who fainted.
This is what I see in Saibaba temple and that’s why I do not believe in the pride of calling oneself as Sai devotee. Being human matters more than being a Sai devotee.
Love,
Venkat
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