Sairam friends,
Yesterday i got into the Dhuni tank where the ashes from the sacred fire of Shirdi Sai baba has to be wiped off. Since its summer and the dhuni ashes were too hot, i felt dizzy and sat near the Tulasi plant in Dwarakamai. My head was completely covered with Udi. Since it was Ekadesi, i read Vishnu Sahasra Nama along with meaning. It was so divine friends.
When my reached home, i quickly got into my room as if Amma looks at my shirt covered with ashes, she will worry a lot and scold me saying “I gave birth to you for this only. Be in Temple itself”. Now a days Amma doesn’t scold me because i make sure shirt doesn’t get dirty and say her “Now a days i never do any work in temple as i am tired” ..He he.
All my friends who serve in Dhuni has to face this but somehow they manage. I hugged a Sai Satcharitra and slept remembering Sai. The past few days i was worried as i have pain in my hand and legs. I felt my nerves are getting weak. I kept saying saibaba, why this happens and never wanted to consult a doctor. I don’t like to to take any internal medicines. Somehow when i felt too painful, i got medicines from a very old Ayurvedic doctor who gives external oil. I kept the medicines as it is and kept praying Shirdi Sai baba to heal me by his leela.
( Note – Don’t read this leela and imagine its better not to see Doctors. I could be one of those stupids who believes such things. Doctors are important and you must consult a Doctor when you are sick. I myself do it)
This early morning, i had a dream as below…
Sai is tearing skin in my middle finger and pulling out a nerve. It was like a small string but i never felt even slight pain. I found few tiny circular structures like pasi as we call in tamil. Sai did something to nerves making sure these pasi doesn’t fall down from the nerve string. Few of these pasi fells down during surgery. So i bend down and give it to sai. Sai inserts it back in the nerve. Then Sai places the nerve back in the palm and closes the skin.
Honestly, i felt i am cured by sai leela. At least sub consciously i feel relieved.
I am happy for this post because past 3-4 month, i only write about the pains am going through relationship issues. I am myself bored and feeling stupid why i reveal so much about my life to the world. To me, its a diary. If you see kapardes dairy who wrote about Sai during his lifetime, it has account of day to day happenings in Shirdi, What Saibaba did that day in dwarakamai, whom he met etc.
I might not be the Venkat who i am today after couple of month or years. My connection and understanding about Sai’s ways constantly changes. I never wanted to be matured. Its good to be childish in my Sai devotion for it helps me see world through the eyes of Sai. If i am practical like others, it doesn’t work.
Note: There’s this common nature among Sai devotees that they feel Shirdi Sai baba is busy with millions of devotees and he doesn’t help them alone. When you keep remembering Sai by chanting Sairam, Sairam, Sairam or when you involve in any Good deeds, When you clearly understand Sai is not in Sai photos or statues and he lives as Antaryami in your own heart, then you will see Sai is actually working for you.
Venkat is not special to Sai and someone else is never ignored.
The more intense your faith on Sai, the more powerfully Sai will make you feel he cares for you.
May Sai heal his devotees from pain.
Shirdi Sai Baba Health care site i made before years – ShirdiSaiHeals.com
Love you Sai,
Venkat – 7/04/2013
Little Servant of Shirdi Sai baba
SAIMATHA
Bless our Pussy with long life, confidence, Bravery to sustain in this world. I deeply pray for ur blessings on him. 🙂 SAIMATHA, SAIAMMA please Shower him Good health.