I was little depressed from last morning due to some reason. I kept questioning about Sai why it all happened. At night, I had been to temple and reached home.
I had a dream as if I am roaming inside a dense forest and searching for divine bliss. What I actually see is filth and dirt. This probably could be the state of my mind. Saibaba wants me to lead a pure life and give up all desires. When I was in the dream, I just saw that I am roaming in the forest. Only when I was about to wake up Sai hinted me that I must chant holy name of Goddess Mookambika.
These days, I constatly have a vision as if I am wearing saffron robe, have a long stick in my palm and walking ahead remembering Goddess.
I am not going to be a saint but this saintly feeling in heart helps me give up desires of any kind. I kept asking Sai why he showed some dreams and can’t prove that he’s involved in the whole episode? The more I ask for answers from Sai the more I get depressed as Sai keeps silent. So its better to focus on Mother Goddess and plead her to show me a way.
I decided to chant Sai Mookambika as much as I can.