Sai Silence – The saint who has all the eight fold miracles * Ashtama Siddhi in him prefers to maintain silence most of the time. No matter how much you chant Sai Sai Sai , how many times you pray with tears or how many years you wait. Sai likes to remain silent.
I have seen Sai devotees who love him deeply and yet their life is not so happy. I see my own life as an example. Especially the past 9 month, i have gone through enough suffering making my parents worry and shed tears for i request them to give me more time to marry the girl i love dearly. To them, it won’t happen as her parents won’t agree and to me, it might happen as i believe in Sai Leela.
Every single day, i shed tears to saibaba to do a leela and bring the girl to my house with her parents. I say baba please do something or atleast bless me with ability to forget her.
I have hundreds of Sai devotees writing to me about problems in their life and sometimes i do reply. Its been over 12,000 such personal mails in the past few years. After showing a way to hundreds of Sai devotees in pain, i wonder why Sai maintain silence when i pray for my own welfare. Doesn’t Sai see my parents are too old and weak to wait for good to happen someday.
Probably that’s Sai’s way and i have to accept it. I love Sai and i really have to accept it.
Silence is one of the quality and nature of Sai :
When i look back at the time when Shirdi Sai Baba really lived in flesh and blood, i could understand the reason for Sai’s silence. Those days after 1910, huge crowd of devotees started coming to see Saibaba from Mumbai and various parts of the country. From few incidents, it’s very clear that Sai Baba though was very much like a ordinary fakir, did not allow every one who comes to him to meet him ( entering Dwarakamai)
The example of Sapatnekar in Sai Satcharitra shows how much Sai is strict in making sure only the deserving devotees gets his darshan and blessings. If a devotee can’t even enter Dwarakamai where’s the question of him/her talking to Sai to fulfill their desires?
probably, i am one of those sinner who doesn’t deserve Sai’s blessing as of now. I am sure Sai will do his leela someday but as of now Sai remains silent. This is the case with millions of Sai devotees who are in pain.
I know humble Mother living somewhere as a sai devotee worried about her child’s health.
I have seen responsible husbands who lost his job and finding it hard to get a better job.
There are couples who write me that it’s been so many years and still they are not blessed with child.
I hear painful situation about women who just got married and their husband harassed them and they don’t know what to do.
There are thousands of young men/women unable to bear the pain in their love and married life.
I know many children worried about their parents health when they get old.
So many such stories and so many devotees with various problems in life.
They all love Sai and they all are devoted to Sai. If one knows to Sing Aarti and other will show their devotion simply by lighting a lamp every morning and some other devotee will visit near by temple regularly.
Having so many devotees is a responsibility too. Like we can’t count the stars, we can’t count Sai devotees.
We must realize that when Sai is silent in our life, he is letting us learn the greatness of Shradha and Saburi – Faith and Patience.
May be our time has not come yet and Sai is silently planning our life. Sai’s ways are not easy to understand friends.
So hold on. Have faith and wait. You waited for months and years. I too have waited for years but Sai alone knows what our karmic bonds are? My humble request is to trust that Sai baba will show us a way no matter what happens.
Sai Silence is a article i wrote when am really pained why Sai is not helping me. Every wednesday when i climb up the roof of Sai mandhir in my hometown to offer garland for Sai, I feel like crying sitting over Dwarakamai. Like me, there are thousands of Men, Women and children experiencing Sai Silence.
Sai, We love your silence because after a long silence. You have to Speak and what you speak is our life.