Nothing is in our control

Sairam friends,

Its gonna be 11.37 at night and I am writing with my laptop which I am really not comfortable with. This afternoon, I was working on a new theme to post as next article on StarSai when there was low voltage. I tried to switch on the Desktop directly and hence things collapsed. Its not working now. I got really upset about it because all my important files, photos and documents are in it. Hope it remains safe by Sai grace.

I went to Shirdi Saibaba temple in my hometown and came around Dhuni as long as I wish. The priest asked me to light lamp near the Tulsi plant which I did. I love this place a lot and treasure it. Later, I went to shop, got battery for UPS and came home. I found my modem also had some issues. I really got irritated.

Seems, nothing is happening as I wish.

There’s this dialogue in Jurassic World  which I forgot . Its like ” The best thing in life is to believe nothing is in our control.” Wish to know the right version of this dialogue.

Saibaba wants me to realize all these years, I have been believing that my life is in my control and now, I can vouch you, that I have never had anything happening exactly as I wish. I have failed, pained and suffered immensely and why on Earth should I believe that my life is in my control? I have just wished that things happen as I wish.

I also prayed Saibaba because I wanted to keep StarSai safe. I am not going to write about my need because Sai knows how to help me. Lets see.

Apart from all this, I got sick and my Mom is not well too. I wonder what’s going to happen in my life and keep questioning Sai if he really has a plan for me. I  wish to feel Sai’s presence with me right now. I wish to sleep in Dwarakamai like Shama did. I wish to wake up at 2. AM to see Sai sitting and counting some coins behind a screen. I see that Sai is keeping these coins allotted to specific devotee as gift. How blessed are the devotees who got these coins as gift from Saibaba?

Anyway. Now. I am going to sleep.

Baba bless all of you friends.

Venkat

Always in the holy feet of Shirdi Saibaba