Yesterday, I screened the Corporate film at work and it was OK experience for everyone. I have to shoot another one in couple of week and working on a script. I am satisfied that I did what Sai asked me to do in dream 3 month back. I went to Saibaba temple with my friend later in the evening and came home.
I watched a movie which Sai told me in dream. I am not sure if I am the only Sai devotee in the whole universe whom Sai will hint with songs and movies. Saints ways are unique. So unique that none of you can trust what I am going through. Last night, I told Baba to come in my dream and guide me. I woke up at 5 and realized I had no dreams. So I hugged a Saibaba book in Tamil which I have been reading these days and slept again chanting Sai’s name. Then too, no dreams came.
I told Baba that this isn’t fair because he must not pass on my time like this. My time is precious too because I have few more years to live and I wanted to add some meaning to my life. Further, I could feel that I am getting sick these days and my health isn’t good. It upsets me that Saibaba has suddenly stopped guiding me in dreams.
I could feel Saibaba don’t like spoon feeding me because I am depending on him for every small step I take in my life.
May be, Sai expects me to live on my own. Well. I don’t think that’s possible any more as I have practised to live by his words and guidance.
Having said that this is just a normal happening in everyone’s life. Some days will pass on with no guidance from Saibaba. We have to tolerate this as a part of journey in being true to Sai’s words.