Sairam friends,
One of the things I must agree that was a reason for my set backs, failures and depression over the years are the little Mistakes I did. Later from 2007, Sai himself encouraged me doing little mistakes showing me some dream and then making me believe in it and finally when things don’t work, Sai simply keeps calm. Probably, this is Sai’s way of giving me few experiences or washing away my sins.
I used to Ask sai that if he really is there and guiding me, then why did I go through suffering?
The answer could be this. May be Saints simply remain where they are and watch what we do in a given situation. Naturally human mind is tempted to desires and we go for it. Finally, we have scares of set backs and depression.
Sai devotion can help us avoid these mistakes. Sometimes, We go to help others and we get into pain and I ask Baba why din’t he prevent me from doing this?
My understanding with all these experiences is simple.
No matter how much we are devoted to SAI, we have to go through some experiences, get hurt and experience pain. This is something strange to me. Am I not devoted to Sai. I remember him day and night and why shouldn’t sai save me before something goes wrong.
That’s how Sai works. May be he has saved me from worst.
We can’t question him. We have to accept life as it comes and move on
Venkat
