Sairam friends,
Today I was really happy at work since I was doing some photography. Not so professional but I enjoyed it. Later, in the evening, I started getting some fear deep in my heart. I feel that I am too playful and not applying what I learn practically. I don’t want to be so sensitive. I wish to do something about me being too sensitive.
I don’t even know if there’s a reason for such fear. May be, I was subconsciously hurt by the way my life is. I wish to do something that will create an impact in lives of many people. As of now, I feel everything is too artificial. How on Earth am I going to survive?
Its like, I am not made for this world. Wish I could go to Saibaba but where is Sai? He is right here in the same bad bad bad world we live in. He is a saint who has always been with us and he knows our difficulties.
I suddenly feel depressed irrespective of all the laughter I have Baba.
Please show me a way
Help me get rid of this fear Sai.
Venkat
Jai Sairam! Baba wants you to be happy, there is nothing wrong with that. Our natural state of being is being happy but we humans drift away from that and then go looking for it. Enjoy the laughter (as long as no one else is the target of that) and be happy. You do not need to take life seriously even while seeking the purpose of your life. Feel blessed that you are able to be silly and laughing and jovial. Millions in this world do not have that blessing. Our dear Sai has plans for you I am sure given your love and dedication to his holy feet. May our beloved Sai bless us all and fulfill our wishes. Jai Sairam!