I was upset with something that happened at work. I felt embarrassed and don’t know when Sai is going to answer me for the dreams he made me react to last year. I would have kept everything within myself and been calm. Somehow, due to my over excitement, I am suffering for over a year now.
I went to Saibaba temple near office last night during aarti. Since it rained few minutes earlier, there were only 2 devotees in temple and none in Dwarakamai. I sat alone infront of Saibaba and pleaded him to show me a way. I don’t need all this. Atleast not after all these years. As I get old, I don’t know where to go?
I just wanna do good deeds to everyone and moveon.
I came home, lit lamp to Sai and spoke to him for a while.
I can’t take this anymore Sai! I did all that you instructed and lived by your words. Now, I feel lost!
Wish Sai answers me soon!